I've been conjuring something
Been trying to figure out a way
The hope of being better off tomorrow
Manes it easier to bear today
'Cause I'm tired of doing what I can
Of facing a reality that I can't stand
I've raised a bloody wall to band my head upon
Worst of all I built it with my own two hands
It seems to me to be too early to regret
But late enough allow the fear to manifest
It's heavy air to breathe, but breathe it in you must
If ever you've a chance to get it off your chest
It's clear that I can;t continue to deny
The terror that's been slowly coming to the fore
That I might be going down & that if I do I'm done
The time will come to drop the dream and shut the door
I'm headed down the dead-end avenue
There must be something more that I can do, something more
I thought that all that you needed was patience
Now that mine's running thin
I really need a new beginning
For something new that hasn't been to begin
To begin with...